December 2010
forgetchu carbs and bread. i'm breaking up with...
sexiest night on television?
maybe the most depressing too… how many girls watching and questioning their physical appearances tonight? either way, i’ve got that lingerie itch that i wanna scratch but i guess everybody else is feeling it too because the VS website is way jammed up and slow. guess i’ll have to wait till tomorrow to go lingerie shopping…
somedays i stand on my elevator and close my eyes and hope that when the doors open it’ll be somewhere other than my floor and my hall and i won’t have to walk down the hall, through the door and back into the same old suite, down the hall from someone who i know is avoiding me.
November 2010
how i plan on getting through the next two weeks:
adderol
tylenol
prescription strength decongestant
tylenol pm
night time decongestant
coffee.
i need to stop fxcking around and just FOCUS. but i can’t. i have so much to do in just the next two days and i’m sitting here staring at my computer uselessly. i’m starting to think that it might just be more productive to take a nap in this time, if i’m not gonna get any work done…
cause they don't smile, or smell like you. no they...
27799.) It's scary to think this is one life we...
if this past week is any indication of how fast life moves, then i dunno how ready i am for life. it’s my last day home on break and i’m so sad it’s already time to head back to pittsburgh. it doesn’t help that the next two and a half weeks are going to be rough. i hate the end of the semester. i know what i have to do in order to finish the semester strong but actually...
“Did my heart love till now? Forswear it, sight, for I never saw true beauty till...”
– William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet.
i haven’t left the house in over 48 hours. yesterday, i wore yoga pants backwards the entire day without even noticing. i fear that once i do leave i’m not going to know how to interact with anyone but my crazy family as i’ve been doing for the past couple days.
i really love being sick…
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a month from now, i’ll be in sri lanka with my family celebrating a very unique christmas. for some reason, i’m under the impressing that i’ll be having some revelation while i’m over there. that going to such a religious place while my own life is in so much turmoil, and while i’m looking for so many answers to my seemingly never ending pile of questions is going to...
happy thanksgiving.
i’m grateful for my absolutely crazy but amazing family, friends who would be there for me no matter what, the love of a boy that means more than the world to me, my health, my school, and everyone and everything that has come into my life and made some sort of a difference.
you know how in the notebook, noah writes ali a letter everyday for an entire year? yeah, i’m not going to give up.
dear god, i would give anything in this world to re-do the past three months. fix what i broke, right my wrongs, and get my life together in school. i’d give anything.
& i think i love him. like eminem calls em shady,...
a fever amplifies even the slightest touch to a...
not everybody knows how to work my body, knows how...
so sick.
and today’s the one day i have to myself to finish all the work i didn’t do before break/was assigned for over break. i’m miserable. everything is aching and i just want to sleep. might have to drag myself to the public library just to get my work done.
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50% and 20% on my first two algebra exams. how is it possible that i can do so poorly in a class that i’m RETAKING!? nearing breakdown mode.
Coldplay - The Scientist (acoustic)
“I’ve been waiting my whole life for the right guy to come along and then you...”
– 27 dresses
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Day 8 - Your most recent photo of you.
i am nothing, without you.
seriously think i’m going to have to fabreeze my boots. they’re by favorite black boots and they’ve been through way too much. i probly should replace them but i just love them too much. they’ve been to a million and a half parties with me, slushed through pittsburgh rain and sleet and snow, slipped and fell multiple times in beer soaked frat floors and now are mudstained...
“I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. if I love you, you can have my everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog’s money, my dog’s time-everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts, I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you...
