still so far outta reach
May 2011
14. what you wore today
woke up in sam’s cheverly tee, changed into a pitt tank and leggings for yoga, and currently in a bikini with high waisted jean shorts and one of my mom’s old maternity tee shirts that’s lime green with a crazy pattern, it’s all oversized and kinda cropped. love it!
Being in a relationship isn't about the kissing, the dates, or the showing off. It's about being with that person that makes you happy in a way no one else can.
Her eyes don’t light up when she hears your name anymore. She doesn’t get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn’t race when you smile at her. You don’t get to her like you used to. You’re just a bad memory in the back of her mind. So don’t be surprised next time you make your way past her and she doesn’t even glance your way. And don’t bother trying to talk to her, you wont get a response. She’s over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you ever chance you could ask for. And you fucked up every time. Now she walks around with nothing but a smile on her face, and she laughs louder then ever before. Looks like you’re losing her.
13. your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it
i spent the majority of my life until college two years ago as a competitive swimmer. it meant i could eat whatever i wanted, and do whatever i wanted and not have to worry about not looking good. then i got to college and i gained weight and even though i’ve lost most of it, i’m not as fit as i was before. i go to the gym everyday, trying to do as much as i can other than extreme measures. i miss my abs and the definition i used to have. yes, everyone says i don’t need to lose weight but i don’t like the way i look and what i think is what matters the most right?
